We had to wait a month, but the Bronco arrived here the other day. After further conversations with John and Tim I will write about that major adventure in a later blog.
According to Katie in the book Kisses From Katie, there will be a time when my heart becomes reconciled to loving people in different parts of the world. I will be able to be in one place without mourning the absence of the other. I'm not there yet...
I opened a large bin brought in from the Bronco and I was immediately back at home in Tennessee in my kitchen. There was my favorite coffee cups and my crock pot and my best spoon and knife. I started to cry. I wasn't expecting that. Touching these things was like a whisper from home. It was very nice and very difficult. I guess I am mourning the loss of familiarity. Mourning the loss of time spent with my children. Mourning the loss of all that I have known for the last ten years in Tennessee. My heart still hurts when I think of these things. But I believe that God knows my heart better than I. He knows the pain of separation. His own son was separated from him and God couldn't even look upon Jesus. I can't imagine that kind of anguish and pain. God can be trusted. His words are true and I can know that I can do all things through Him. God will lead me to a place where I can be in one place, separated from those that I love and not feel this pain in my heart. I'm just not there yet.
Along those same lines Dennis and I got to Skype at our home church, Greater Life Church in Lexington, TN. It was so good to see all those that we love. It was awesome to be a part of the praise and worship. Pastor Jamie had a great sermon. We got to see our children attending church with our grandchildren. It doesn't get much better than that. My heart feels a little better already!
Love You Guys!!!
Thank you Lord!!!
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